That and this

Cool evening air brings promise of a new tomorrow,
softening hard tension,
like a stiff drink,
time to think,
subtle shadows,
paranoia fades as fear becomes the norm,
taking hold of myself,
I grapple with my worst,
the habits that ruin me,
melancholy that stifles my obligations,
the desire to overcome,
to improve, to run again, to be strong, 
reliable and there for you is here,